At times it's scary just how accurate I can be.

Or you could say that I'm useless at keeping up to date and have proved it.

My bloggage tonight is about being pregnant and being hurt.

When I found I was pregnant with W, I was really worried about how my despicable sister-in-law would take it. She had announced constantly that she wanted kids, despite the fact that my brother didn't want kids. When I realised I was pregnant with W, I told my brother first, thinking this would spare E from an awkward situation. He told me that E was also pregnant - 4 weeks due ahead of me! I was so happy for her - I knew she was dying to be a mum, but was also aware that my brother was not keen on being a dad. He admitted that he was scared, felt unsure how happy to be for himself, but was delighted for me. When SIL talked to me she said that she was 'annoyed' I was pregnant at the same time as her, that she wished she'd announced the pregnancy earlier so she could have had more attention about hers and then... 'You haven't put on much weight being pregnant. I always thought you'd be the type of person to get really fat. Are you eating properly?'

Fast forward three years and I'm pregnant again. SIL makes no reference to me being pregnant for the entire duration. D is born in dramatic circumstances on the bathroom floor, and we are taken to hospital in an ambulance at 120mph. E tells anyone who will listen that babies are born all the time at home, and that a home birth is normal (although her son was born by elective c-section). A calls home to say we're all ok. E asks 'So who's looking after the boys this afternoon?' - less than ten hours after D's terrifying arrival. Despite her coming to the house every day for a week she doesn't see D. It's only when her own son drags her in that she meets her niece for the first time.

This woman is part of my family, I have to work with her. But I just don't know what to do with her. I feel like she's a poisonous gas, silently infiltrating everything and it's so hard to explain to people why she's so hurtful.